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The Mold Saga, Part 3: From Detox to Retox (and Floxxed)

The Mold Saga, Part 3: From Detox to Retox (and Floxxed)

I don’t know if I can appropriately put into words the amount of stress that I went through shortly after we were out of the mold house.  Our emotions were all over the place – relief, frustration, loss, grief, hope.  It tested our ability to experience opposite emotions at the same time.

But after we got rid of 90% of our belongings, we left the house behind us without a thought of regret. It was a disease, and we wanted no part of it any longer.

If you remember from Parts 1 and 2, we continued to be highly reactive any time we came into contact with mold or even mold spores. And by reactive I mean dried out throat, ears popping, vertigo and dizziness, nausea, visual disturbances, severe headaches, tremors, muscle weakness, electric shocks, confusion, difficulty speaking – it’s a bit ridiculous. The extent of these symptoms depended on the length of exposure and whether or not we immediately showered and washed our clothes after exposure. Often the symptoms would not resolve for hours.

So it’s understandable why we actively work to avoid these places and items. 

The first few weeks of September were great.  I started walking and was so relieved that I could finally exercise – I had never treasured the ability to walk and exercise before, but I did during that time. I was going to get healthier than I’d ever been. 

Everyone noticed a difference.  My boss remarked on the improvement in my energy and mood. It was shocking how sick I had been and how drastically I changed just by being out of that environment. 

And now looking back just a few months to those brief few weeks when I was getting my energy and vitality back, my heart actually feels like it could break because it was devastatingly short-lived.

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The Mold Saga, Part 2: Out with the Mold

The Mold Saga, Part 2: Out with the Mold

“We must be willing to get rid of the life we’ve planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us.

The old skin has to be shed before the new one can come.

If we fix on the old, we get stuck. When we hang on to any form, we are in danger of putrefaction.

Hell is life drying up.”

Joseph Campbell


It is weird at this point to begin writing about the mold saga.  There’s so much that has passed.  And there’s so much that’s still ongoing.  I feel strangely suspended in time.

After we found the mold, life changed overnight.  Literally.  We began staying with my parents and only going back to the house to pick up some things that we needed.  By the first weekend, we had decided we would be moving out as soon as possible.  This was certainly not something we had prepared to do.  Even though I had just decided to begin applying to PhD programs, we had no expectation of moving for at least a year out. 

Amazingly, Daniel had just moved his business that had been located in our house into another location.  It was a little unbelievable how perfectly timed that had been.

So we got to work moving.  I went to work during the week, and on the weekends, we planned to work as many hours as we could handle moving our things out.  It was during that first weekend, we realized this was not going to be an easy thing to do.  Continue reading “The Mold Saga, Part 2: Out with the Mold”

The Mold Saga, Part 1: More than Migraine

The Mold Saga, Part 1: More than Migraine

The Mold and the Beautiful

Of Mold and Men

The Mold of Our Lives

The Mold and the Restless

Out with the Mold

These are just a few of the titles I’ve been throwing around to describe what has come to be known as the mold saga.  A saga is by definition lengthy.   It keeps going.  And going. 

And this definitely feels like a saga.  An unending saga of twists and turns, discoveries, hope, disappointment, deep pain, and new beginnings. 

Many of you are aware that I’ve been dealing with significant migraines for over a year.  In July 2018, I began dealing with on and off depression.  This was unusual for me.  I often experienced some mild depression in the winter season, but usually the summers were better.  But July 2018 was rough.  I got sick with some kind of upper respiratory garbage that felt more like intense allergies that just wouldn’t quit.  I had on and off nosebleeds.  And on and off migraines.  I was tired.  Like exhausted, hurt-all-over fatigue.  But I kept thinking it would let up.  Surely I could just change some things in my life and feel a little better. Continue reading “The Mold Saga, Part 1: More than Migraine”